My boss complimented my performance at work today. I didn’t feel like I was doing anything special in particular today or for the last few months really. But apparently unbeknownst to me I had been doing better work and working better with the team. These were not conscious changes that I had been working to achieve but were simply improvements that came from the general change of my being.
I have been working to improve myself for the last couple of years and it has been a journey. I had to start really basic to build momentum and to build a foundation of well being that has allowed me to start to grow in areas that I am not even focused on. It started with sleep… I needed more of it, a lot more, I would stay up late watching stuff that I was not even that interested in just to delay the coming of tomorrow. Not that my days were bad in any way I just hadn’t learned to be excited about them. I also knew deep down that I was not reaching my potential each day which caused issues with anxiety.
Then by starting small and starting to improve my habits things started to change. Over time I found myself not dreading my day of work ahead of me but feeling excited about just having another day to improve and spend time with my family. The simple act of growth not only improved the facets of life that I had been working on but also started to just permeate through my entire being and led to growth that I hadn’t even been focused on. It still isn’t easy and I still have a long ways to go but having momentum on my side is one hell of a game changer.